June | TWENTY- TWO
The word of last week was; growth. So, if you are craving some daily affirmations, follow along and choose to grow.
Last week I was so angry. I had so many things go against me and I felt so stressed about all the deadlines I have that I can’t seem to catch up to no matter how much planning I do. It is like I have this built-in system that keeps on telling me that I can’t do it and so I don’t. I procrastinate them because they take up space in my head but when I don’t deal with them they just grow and create other problems.
I know I am lucky to be able to sit here and express myself and think about how I feel. I can reflect and ponder about my life and for the most part, I feel very thankful. However, sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t be where I am right now, do you ever have that feeling? I feel like it is time to grow and like I have done what I can do here at this stage in my life. I am ready to level up to the next part of my life. Life has kept me here for a reason I am sure but this calling inside my heart is telling me it is time to go. It is time to grow.
The funny thing is, I had a conversation with someone last week who reminded me that there is something radically wrong in my life since nothing is working out for me. It could be life is telling me to try other things, to test a new way of thinking, to go for something completely different than what I think I should be doing. She continued so easily with a smile; your soul is not here my dear. Your soul has already left. Go with it.
It was like my prayers had been answered. I have been wanting and waiting for somebody to tell me to do just that. I don’t really know why I can’t listen to my own voice and why I don’t allow myself to think that way. Why it takes a stranger to analyze me and my behavior for me to trust that I need to change my environment is a whole other topic that I am sure we will get back to in the near future. But for
The thing is I know my soul has been calling me. I have actually known that for a while. It has been trying to connect to my body and been telling me to wake up, to move, to shake. The problem is I like my comfort zone and I am scared of the unknown, but who isn’t?
Inside my head, this voice whispers to me;
Grow girl,
grow,
into the woman
you already are.
What is your soul telling you and are you ready to grow? Let me know in the comment section below.
Love,
Pet
